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Monday, April 26, 2004

Do you ever want to be free? I mean free from responsibilities, bills, the phone, the husband, the kids, the life you consider normal? I had a day like that Sunday. No matter where I went or what I did my nerves were on edge. I am not particularly fond of this feeling. I don't like not liking my life. All day I just wished there was a switch that I could flip to set me free. I felt lonely although I was constantly surrounded by my family. I think that was the problem. Too much family fun. Or rather, too much family time and not enough fun.

You see, it is spring and the fish are biting. Hooray for Mike. I think that my melancholy mood stemmed from a slight shunning from my husband. I get myself into trouble when I expect him to be a bit romantic. He simply is not. If I spell it all out...he'll gladly play the role...it's just not something he thinks up on his own. I was ready on Saturday night for a date. A movie, some candles, even a blow job wouldn't have been out of the question......but he fished until 11:30 and I was asleep on the couch. He finished watching the movie by himself and covered me up and then went to bed. He has never been the epitomy of romance so I don't know why I let myself become hopeful...

So I think my mood on Sunday was just frustration. I wanted some sex and I didn't get it and I'm sick and fucking tired of initiating it. I feel like some kind of nympho freak. And that is irritating. So then I struggle with that. Besides, I like to be chased around a little...I spend my entire life being the boss....taking care of the kids, the house, the yard, blah, blah.......and I've been on this diet for a full week now...and I've been great! So seriously, is it too much to ask..a little attention for me for a change? Is that the most selfish thing you've ever heard?

Toby said it best......"I like to talk about you, you, you, you, usually.....but, occasionally, I WANT TO TALK ABOUT ME!!!!!!!

So, tomorrow's another day.....and I'm thirsty anyway....so bring on the rain.

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Saturday, April 24, 2004

I am seriously addicted to these online quizzes. If I were my closest friends I would worry about me....

Try these......www.allthetests.com , tickle.com, quizzila.com.......makes for some fun conversation....

I wish I would have been able to go out tonight......I feel like dancing......
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Thursday, April 22, 2004

Day 4........

Today has been an amazing day. First I must report that I am adjusting to the way of .....let's say refueling.........my body. This week I have conquered the Pizza Hut lunch buffet, stared a Hershey bar right between the eyes, and stopped short of consuming an entire plate of chicken enchiladas. I CAN DO THIS!! I AM DOING THIS!! Hooray for me!

I took the kids to the fairgrounds today for the 6th annual Kid Palooza. We had a fantastic time. We also had an extra along for the ride....Marcus, who is not quite two was spending the day while his mama taught a school program. The kids were great! It was drizzling and awful outside but it didn't matter...this event was so well organized and strictly designed for preschoolers and toddlers...they just quickly moved all the events inside a building. They had a dj playing the Baha Men..."Who let the dogs out"..Preston was in his glory! We planted seeds, played with homemade play dough, got finger printed, pictures taken, played with rhythm instruments while a very nice lady played the autoharp...we danced and danced and hoola hooped, chased bubbles from the bubble machine and got to jump in the blow up jumpy thing that costs a couple of bucks everywhere else. This little town never ceases to amaze me! I am always pleasantly surprised at everything we attend here. And these were all local sponsers, like insurance companies and the radio station, the library, the parks, etc. I love the sense of community here.

Today was also a big day for Mike. He caught not one , not two, but THREE small mouths bass weighing in around 5lbs each!!! The man at the bait shop is taking them to mount because they are bigger than the ones he already has on his wall. Now to you and me this may not be a big deal....but to a fisherman this is a dream come true. It is a rarity to ever in your fishing lifetime to catch this big of a fish....small mouth bass anyhow. But three in one afternoon...is unheard of! And believe me this was no "fish story". And the sparkle in my husband's eyes told the tale. He is "the man". As he very plainly explained to the owner of the bait shop that he frequents so very much, "this had nothing to do with luck....and everything to do with knowledge and experience." Wise words for my husband who is convinced that it had nothing at all to do with the fact that he happened to be in the right place at the right time for a change.

I'd like to know what happened to my 10 bucks if he caught those fish on jigs.....Gosh, I know way more about this than I ever cared too.

In other news......me and the kids spent the evening last night with my in laws watching the CMT Flameworthy awards. Go Toby Go!! Who's your Daddy??? He of course won 3 of the 4 awards that he was nominated for. Thank you Kymmie for voting 16+ times for video of the year as I was not close to the computer. And wow!! He is one hunka hunka! mmmhhhmmm

It has been a great week......day 2 was pretty shaky...lots of growling tummy....but I have survived and am conquering!! And now I have just read that a new asian elephant was born at the zoo last Friday! YEA!! Ready girls....nothing like a new baby to organize the posse???!!!

I am woman...hear me roar!!
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Monday, April 19, 2004

Day One.......of the "D" word.....

Ok so today was the day to start the dreadful diet. I've spent the last week mentally preparing for this day.. and I've made it. I used about 25 pts. still a few shy of the max...just in case of miscalculation. I'm happy about this...and also am glad to have a few buddies to call to say "I'm fucking starving!!" And they will be able to say "me too".

I also posted my first message on the Toby Keith message board. I got 41 responses . Everyone loves me. Yea!

Needing to go to bed......after folding 52 loads of laundry today.....


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Friday, April 16, 2004

Once again...this has been the best day in my whole life!!!!!!

I am no longer a virgin in the poetry world! Have lost it many other times in many different ways, but this was a first for me, and the rest is a whole nother blog.

I went to a poetry reading tonight at our local library and was completely surprised. I didn't know what to expect but it was not what I found. I guess, I am ashamed to admit, that I expected to see a bunch of beret wearing wierdos all dressed in black....not to mention the big giant words that I was ready to not understand. What I got instead was two full hours of smiles and laughter and beautifully written works that depicted life in a new light. AND I got to be the cream in the middle of my K&K sandwich!!!!! HOORAY for me! I am a "WORD WARRIOR"!

I met the girls at a snazzy little creepy corner in town and had a nice little dinner in one of the two non-smoking tables in the place. Nothing like hot cheese sticks and potato skins washed down with a boat-load of iced tea to make a mama feel special. Then to have not one but two sets of admiring eyes staring back at me.......was simply delightful. Thanks Tim and Gene for making this night happen for me!!! Special thanks to Gene for dealing with not only his own kids but someone else's as well so that Jazzy Kym could be a part of my night.

It's so fun to dress up! We all looked so hot! YEA!

And the waitress even asked if we liked nascar (YIKES!) because the beer man had left this little cardboard box that I think is a table tent thing that is official nascar........and guess who??? Well, it was the #8!! The Bud man, Dale Jr. Sorry Kel, they didn't have the blue guy...I forget his name.....but yes, in this state of wife-and-mama-but-free-for-the-evening-out-with-the-girls-place I was in I remembered to grab it for you Jim. It will go nicely on your "side" of the bar.

After dinner we piled into a car and went to the library. Reluctantly, cause I was into the make out on the playground idea, we went in. And to my delight the poetry was fantastic. I understood. I laughed almost to the point of snorting. I am thrilled with my new inspiration and admiration of poetry. I am feeling so cultured and artsy that I can hardly stand my own self....and you all know how much I love me already!!!!

Hummus, brie, knitting, now poetry???????? What would I have done without you guys???
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Rain, rain, go away...........

Although with the rain comes the solidity of the new roof. Hooray for us! No more leaky sunporch. Although, that means more demo and more remodeling which in turn means more work for me....what else do I have to do??!!

Did you know that I am what you call a "Word Warrior".......according to tickle.com I am some kind of genious. I took an IQ test, an inkblot test, and a "what-kind-of-kisser-are-you" quiz. I happen to be a romantic kisser in case you didn't already know this about me. I thought that was interesting....eyes closed, lots of tongue.......sorry got caught up in the moment. I have a tendency to like it a little rough..........like when your hair gets pulled...mmmmmmmmmmmm

Ok I'm back....

Still trying to recover from Easter. Listening to a little TK in the background. That always puts me in a happy place. Why does Easter basket grass get everywhere? I've vacuumed 3 times....still more grass. YUK!

Nothing major going on here......just raining, and day dreaming........

I'm going to a poetry reading with some of my best girls on friday night. I hope I understand what they are talking about........but since I now know that I am a word warrior it should be a breeze. I will take their advice and just look inspired....and it that fails.....I'll pull out the beret...


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Friday, April 09, 2004

KICK ASS SLUMBER PARTY!!!

I had 3 of Mike's nieces over for a slumber party last night...and WOW what fun!! Two decided not to come at the last minute mostly because of some inner family dispute that is ridiculous and too long to get into now..besides this is about the fun!!

This is the run down:

5:30pm everyone arrived, played in the yard until about 6:30

7:00pm ate pizza on the deck with our coats on freezing our asses off!!

8:00pm started coloring eggs.....and I turned on the Toby Keith Unleashed
cd ....and was I ever surprised when all 5 kids burst into song!!
nothing like a hunk of burnin' love to liven up a party!!! These are
my kind of kids!!

8:30pm I take it upon myself to share the joy and prank called almost every-
one we know. Sorry if we missed you because it was GREAT!!
Thank you Kym for picking up!! They sang and colored 5 dozen
eggs until well after 9:30pm.

10:00pm everyone was in their jammies and we watched The Cat in the Hat.
sleeping bags covered my living room floor, and my house was full
of giggling. It was great!

11:45pm Preston and Avery went to bed with their Daddy and I took up
residence on the couch. My kids are no fools..nice bed and warm
Daddy is much better than oak floors with no air mattress.

12:00am Everyone is out cold...except me because I am compelled to take a
trip through the house to make sure the stove is off and a light is
on...all my ducks in a row...

7:00am Avery is wide awake and whispering in my ear.

7:30am I'm trying to get a cup of coffee in me while everyone is chanting
"pancakes!"

8:00am Pancakes it is...fancy heart shaped pink ones with sprinkles!! I'm
the greatest auntie in the world!! I love food coloring!!

9:00am EGG HUNT!! Mike and his brother, Fred, helped hide 2 dozen eggs
and also helped the kids hunt them while I ran the video camera.
It was a memorable family moment. Preston informed all that he was
"a good finder egger!!" I agree.

9:30am Feed sack race! Hanna won!! Hooray for Hanna! She's 5 almost 6.
(two of the girls were 10 so I thought this was a great feat) P. had
a strong second to last finish as he fell soon after leaving the gates.
And A. finished last gracefully climbing out of her bag and running
to the end. Hooray kids!!

12:00pm Everyone was gone and we had some lunch and the kids fell into
bed with no fuss!! Wish I could have fallen asleep..just couldn't.


So, that was our day! Now my ass is kicked and I'm ready for bed!! Mike is going back to work on Monday! Hooray for Mike!(and me) I love to have a kick-ass party! Full strength Koolaid and everything!! There is nothing better than a house full of laughter.


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Sunday, April 04, 2004

There is nothing like the first cup of coffee on a lazy Sunday morning. I'm freezing this morning, probably because it's ridiculously cold outside, and I feel like climbing back under the covers with a good book. And I probably will do just that.

You see, this will be a major adjustment week. My kids will be crazy from the time change. Not looking forward to that because their normal bedtime at 8pm just moved to 9. That is not only an hour lost of sleep...that is an hour of my alone time that I will miss. Every day!

But, oh how I love the daylight. I love to be able to see until 9pm!! I love that my daffodils are in full bloom and my clematis is greening up. I'm anxiously awaiting the warm sunny mornings so that I can have that first cup of coffee on the deck and watch the birds. What a wonder spring is!! I love watching day to day as new life emerges right before my eyes. I can't wait to get my hands in the earth and plant some flowers and my garden. HOORAY!! Spring is here and I'm glad.
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Thursday, April 01, 2004

Wow...what a crazy 24hrs it has been....

Maybe I will start at the end and work back...today we had a new addition to our "moms club". Max came into the world to meet his big sis Emma and big bro Sam. Congratulations Katherine and Mark!!!!! Why do I always feel like the new ones belong to me too??? And why must Katye be the clubs designated nail cutter?? Another blog about that...

...backing up another few hours....

I got to do something very different (for me anyway) tonight. I got to eat a hot meal and have a full glass of iced tea in a restaurant with a girlfriend with no kids!!!! You see, most of my time is spent being the domestic goddess and kick ass super mama of two. Who am I kidding??!! ALL of my time is spent cooking, cleaning, playing, parenting, etc.(need I go on? seriously...) It was definetly an exception to the general rule. I think Mike agreed only because he loves the girlfriend...or she's been around much longer and afraid that she'd have the seniority......ok enough about my girl fetish....

It was very strange to be in a place and be able to finish a sentence without saying "please be nice", "please stop roaring at Mara", "please wait your turn", etc. again...you're getting the picture, right? Every time I get together with a group of friends it's always chaotic...always great fun, but also chaotic. And I find myself trying to compensate for the quiet time in a normal adult conversation because I'm simply not used to having what one would consider a normal adult conversation in the general sense of normal every day situations.(wow, that was kind of cluster-fucked..sorry) You see, I think I started worrying her when I was recounting the events of the past week in my life and got to the part about the woman who was sitting behind me in church and kept saying "Praise Jesus" over and over...I think my friend was worried about where I was headed or how loud I might get ....so....she "shushed" me... like THAT was going to shut ME up!! Quite frankly, I could have been screwing our server on our table at the restaurant and no one would have even noticed. It was Max & Erma's for pete's sake. I have gotten big giant kicks out of this all day long....shushed....YIKES!! (kel..you know I love you) I suppose I could blame my radical group of friends...I always have to fight for the floor...and sometimes have to literally shout to be heard...but who am I kidding??!!! I'm obnoxious but you all love me anyway!! Hooray for me!

I also got to go shopping for a new hand bag. I didn't buy one but I got lots of good ideas about what I'm thinking I want. You see, this is a VERY serious purchase. This is my gift to myself for getting my daughter into underpants without bloodshed. Her's not mine.... I haven't had anything but a "kid friendly" bag in almost 5 years. This is HUGE to me. It must be just right. We shopped in a store that was by no means kid proof or stroller accessible, lots of fancy lamps and art...YEA! I forgot how much I liked me! How incredibly cool am I?? O.K...ego trip over....very nice to have a break...from the chaos...and strangely nice to think about what I wanted. It was fun and I came home to my bed full of snoring people....and I slept in my son's bed ALONE...and had sweet, sweet dreams of beautiful hand bags with my initial/sign on it complete with a magnetic snap, a zipper, a strap long enough to go across the body to be hands free for kid safety, and a matching lip stick case....




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